Monday, February 28, 2011

you look like the perfect fit....for a girl in need .... of a tourniquet.

feeling melancholy. ehhh.....I am the only person to blame. I am truly blessed right now except for the love department. I am always deficient in that area. Screw it.
This song is and has always been one of my favorite melancholy songs.

I have a lot to talk about. I mainly have to talk about MOVIES!!! I somehow channeled my inner film critic and watched a shitload of movies this past two weeks. It's all going down.....across the universe.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

My two favorites



Taking a stroll down memory lane

My neice is maturing into a nerd just like me. God help her. Lol I have started a new tradition I hope, of sending her at least two books a month. I sent her the first one and she read it in two days. It was a scary book, but a goodie, nonetheless. I have been searching for it for years just because I wanted it in my personal library. Speaking of, I need to bulk that sucker up. Anyways, all I could remember was that there was a female child ghost haunting a girl that moved into a former church with her family and the front page was a map of the house and adjacent cemetery. I remembered that much and that I absolutely loved it...or I think I did. These days you won’t even catch me watching a scary movie, much less read a scary book. Back then I craved them. Goosebumps, R.L. Stine, and Christopher Pike were favorites. I would ride the city bus to the public library near my house or have my grandpa drop me off at the main library so I could stock up on as many books as possible. Reading was my adventure. Reading was my escape. I fell in love with reading and I have been ever since. So my niece is asking for nothing but scary books but I am leaning more toward my absolute favorites, Beverly Cleary books. I truly loved reading Beverly Cleary books. Strider is still one of my favorite books of all time. I remember trying to read every single one of her books and I may have succeeded give or take one or two. Some of them are impossible to find. I loved Dear Mr. Henshaw so I even wrote Mrs. Cleary a fan letter to show my adoration for her and her books just as Leigh did in Dear Mr. Henshaw, with my school picture enclosed. I gave the letter to my mom, who in turn laughed at me and said that the author was probably dead. She and my father then proceeded to make fun of me for it for about a month or so after telling everyone who would listen. "What is a dead author going to do with a picture of you? How is she going to read your letter?" she would ask sarcastically. Looking back I remember how much it hurt, still does. I feel bad for the young me.

Beverly Cleary is still alive today. She is 94 years young. She might have received my letter had I not thrown the letter with my picture inside of it away that day. I really identified with Leigh from Strider and Dear Mr. Henshaw. Leigh was a child of divorce and hardly got to see his truck driver dad or his mother who worked long hours. Books really were my escape from reality and I wanted to be Ramona or Henry with their perfect nuclear families. Books saved me from my crazy childhood. I kind of want to start collecting all the books and maybe pass them down to my future children because at least one of them will have the bookworm gene I hope. My niece definitely has the gene. I went ahead and sent her a diary and Dear Mr. Henshaw. She is having a tough time with her parents’ divorce and I hope that it helps her as much as possible. I can't wait for her to fall in love with Beverly Cleary books just as I did. My friend Andrew told me to go ahead and send a letter to Beverly Cleary. I think he may be right.

Which Cleary book is your favorite?

Here are some of mine......




Wednesday, February 16, 2011


She has one of the most amazing voices I have ever heard in my entire life.

This song gets me every time.

The beautiful and ridiculously talented Adele......

I love what the announcer says at the end. He is absolutely right.

UPDATE: Beautiful. :)

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

"and I was satisfied being in love with a lie"

Runaway fast as you can

This is how I'm feeling about Valentine's Day right now.

"and I was satisfied being in love with a lie."

Happy Late Valentine's Day

Mine didn't go so well. I spent the entire evening with a very sick grandparent in the hospital. He has pneumonia and that is very very bad at his age and he's already very weak as it is. I'm praying for him. Please do the same

My boyfriend had to work yesterday as well. He said that he doesn't believe in Valentine's Day. Is this just a cop out? It really annoyed me that he wouldn't/didn't get me anything thing for Valentine's Day. He couldn't even bother to get me a card. I got him a card. It's the thought that counts....
He said that Valentine's was a made up day for stupid people that think they are in love, to which I replied,"Wow people who think they are in love must be suckers huh?" His answer,"Hell yes." Self-righteous prick. I just can't believe how insensitive he is over the entire situation but obviously I do believe in it so why trash all over it? I don't know, it really has me thinking. He did something else shady this weekend that I can't get over either. We went out to the bar where he pretty much knows everyone and I really don't. So while he's making his rounds I decided to sit with a group of people that I had met previously there. It was a group of men coworkers and they were having a going away party for the person I knew the best. I am sitting there and joking around with them when boyfriend comes up and starts joking to which everyone laughs and says to all of us,"Amanda, don't ever try to be as funny as I am. You can never be funny like me. Your humor level is ehh about a 7, mine is a ten. So don't." I was completely embarrassed. I almost cried right there. Please tell me Im being oversensitive or something. I went into quiet mode after that and he kept asking what was wrong so I told him and he said he was joking and then proceeded to be mad at me and argue with me because I'm too "sensitive". I totally saw a different side of this person that I thought was perfect for me. I really need to make some decisions. Am I too sensitive or is he too insensitive?

Sunday, February 13, 2011


If your love was a season
I'm sure it would be winter
cold and bitter
robbing my warmth
you stay only a short period
but leave permanent hurt.
I can feel you coming long before your arrival
but I'm never prepared for that freezing wind
I fear for my survival
no coat of armor protects me from you ...


Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Prince is a Princess


Never believe a person when they tell you the sex of your kitten. Also, learn how to check the sex of your kitten. I have have my precious Prince for almost six
months and he has been a boy that entire time. I even proclaimed Prince and Appollonia husband and wife and called their fights love spats. Starting two days ago, Prince
began to act strangely and meow and moan very oddly. We thought he wanted to go outside because maybe a girl cat was in heat. Boy were we wrong. Prince is a Princess. My
little loveyboy is a loveygirl. I dont know what to think. Is she sexually confused or has she thought we were morons this entire time? Maybe the latter of the two. It feels
very strange right now because I only know Prince as a boy. I will have to get used to it but the name will remain the same, for obvious reasons. My little girl is a Catwoman


Saturday, February 5, 2011

Things I miss

Yes this is a little superficial but I really miss my hair. My long hair. I miss being able to curl my hair or even putting it in a simple ponytail...this growing out process is a pain in the ass




Friday, February 4, 2011


This weather is absolutely crazy. I can’t believe that we are having this weather in Texas. In Texas, we are known for 100+ degree temperatures, not ice storms and inches of snow. If and when we get snow or ice it only lasts for a day, if that. It has been three days of ice and sleet, which meant no work or school, and last night it began to snow. It’s nothing if not absolutely beautiful outside. Yet the weather is like a beautiful woman, beautiful but dangerous. I have been stuck in the house all week except for yesterday when I ventured out for the night. What a big mistake that was. As I was walking from the car to my cousins apartment I slipped and fell, resulting in my head hitting the ground. My head doesn’t hurt at all, but my entire neck area is in pain. It is supposed whiplash. Isn’t that crazy??
As a kid growing up in Texas, snow happens once in a blue moon. As soon as I woke up this morning I had such childish ideas of making snow angels and sliding down the street on a homemade sled. As soon as my cousins son showed up at my mothers we engaged in a snowball fight and made snow angels. We began making snow men but that it definitely harder than it looks. If there is still snow tomorrow, I am going to try to make one on my own. I wish that I had my neice and nephew to share this with but that’s a story for another time.
The superbowl is on Sunday and this weather is not changing anytime soon. Is it a Superbowl curse? We’ve never had weather like this before. I live in Dallas, Tx if you guys didn’t already know that.
Could it be global warming? That thought really scares me. We seriously need to start making changes because we are in trouble. I have been trying to figure out how I can minimize my carbon footprint and try to engage others to do the same. A while back I was considering taking a sewing class so that I could make recyclable bags for shopping instead of the plastic bags.
Once in the environment, it takes months to hundreds of years for plastic bags to breakdown. As they decompose, tiny toxic bits seep into soils, lakes, rivers, and the oceans, said Cobb. Taken from Are Plastic Grocery Bags Sacking the Environment?
John Roach
for National Geographic News
September 2, 2003

Go to this link and find 50 Ways to Reduce Your Carbon Footprint

I didn’t have the funds to take the sewing class but soon I will and I think I may go ahead and take it. We really need to start taking care of the environment. I want my future children to be able to enjoy Texas weather and on occasion make a snowman or woman. 

On a much happier note, here are some shots of my little snow adventure today. Sorry for the quality, I had to take with my camera phone. Enjoy.

This is after I fell and bumped my head..





Tuesday, February 1, 2011

mellon collie and the infinite sadness

Baby, I got a plan
Run away fast as you can


MBDTF has two killer break up songs.....

On a bathroom wall I wrote I'd rather argue with you than to be with someone else...

I'm jamming these on replay today.

Things used to be, now they not
Anything but us is who we are
Disguising ourselves as secret lovers
We’ve become public enemies
We walk away like strangers in the street
Gon for eternity
We erased one another
So far from where we came
With so much of everything, how do we leave with nothing
Lack of visual empathy equates the meaning of L-O-V-E
Hatred and attitude tear us entirely

Chloe Mitchell